as always, there is never a time i don't have a tear in my eye.
i miss matt smith every fucking second i breathe.
i hate to even try to express it because there are no words, not even close, that can describe how fucking torn my heart is. i don't even want anyone to understand because i don't wish it upon anyone to really understand what this pain is like. i don't want anyone else to have to feel this sorrow. there are already too many that have the same despair.
i never knew i would rather wish for a pain that would be so much more severe but sudden and quick instead of what i feel now and will always carry with me. seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years...life